今天沒怎麼, 其實今天的心情很平凡, 有一點期待心, 就是期待明天今年最後大學考試. i have prepared well and hopefully, the exam will produce questions that i have the answers to or else i will be screwed. 從明天起就開始有自由, must start planning stuff, 但是失去了錢的安全感, 我爸爸真是的, 開始減少生活費, 那我用什麼呢? 這就是我最害怕的感覺, 就是失去了這個安全感. 我還是會像以前一樣快快樂樂的過日子嗎? 還是一直煩惱一直煩惱怎麼賺錢? this is one of the days ive been dreading for a very long time

在小學的時候, 被很多人欺負, 就不停著想為什麼? 但是昨天晚上我朋友在 facebook 上載我跟我小學的朋友在一起的照片就讓我想起.......some of the best memories of primary school were with them. The fact that I keep thinking that primary school was like one of the worst periods of my life made me forget that some of the best memories were shared with my closest friends those that did not bully me. 我知道被欺負就是對一個人來說很難忘的事情但是我從現在開始就要忘記, 被欺負的時候, 然後想起我跟我好朋友們, those ones that got me through primary school, 的回憶. After thinking about it, primary school wasn't bad after all.

昨天晚上, 我以前的校長打電話給我高說我好消息, 就是我能過去台灣唸書. 之前他說我不能去台灣唸書的時候, 因為位子已經滿了, 就有一種很傷心, 很害怕的感覺. because from the start of 2008, i planned that i was going to taiwan and when i didnt get in, all my plans were up in ruin. 現在知道年底能夠去台灣, i was happy, but there is this feeling you get when you really really want something and when you get it, there is a sign of relief but there is no joy and it seems like i dont even want it anymore, i still will go because ive wanted this for a long time. 但是感覺上我有一點害怕的感覺

好久沒回來寫日誌了......最近沒怎麼樣, 進不到台灣唸書, 對我來說特別失望. 因為這可能是我最後一年可以apply. 今天拿回來我的ob 作業, 成績還好, distinction. thought id get worse but didnt which was good

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for some reason i am not happy anymore, the joys of life has just passed me by and i have reached to a point where my life is going nowhere, i thought it would never be like this, i use to wake up and the first thing i would think of is, "my life is perfect, can it get any better than this?" i know it's an arrogant thing to say but back then everything was going right for me, there was not a worry in the world, i havent experienced that kind of feeling in a long time. the first thing would be uni, i failed 3 subjects and am in the risk of getting expelled if it happens again, what am i going to do if that happens?! id be the laughing stock of my friends and family, i have to get through uni, its like my ultimate hurdle right now, i thought getting through high school would be my only hurdle in life and uni would be a breeze so some people say, but its not, i guess it all depends on what course your doing to be a breeze. the only thing that i can relax about it music and wh